Things are looking brighter

After a long time of being unemployed, again, I am finally going back to work! I took a bartending course at The Professional Bartending School (if you go there, make sure you say I (Gina Askew) referred you, plus it's really inexpensive).

 

So I am now a Certified Mixologist.

Even better, I was able to score not one, but two jobs! The first one is a Bartender at Red Lobster. The second one is Bartender at Jiffy Lube Live Amphitheater. I start training today at Red Lobster and on the 15th for JLL. I am so excited. I should do great at both. I was told by the hiring manager at RL that the bartender that I replaced and been "released" and went to work at another restaurant nearby and took all her regulars with her. However, I'm smart. Rather than use all of my friends to build up my clientele I am going to the local hotels. We have 12 within a mile radius. I honestly haven't bartended since 2001, that's a long time. And I was only there a couple of months because the owner was a huge douche bag.

Right now, I am so undecided. You may have read from my previous blog, that I want to move to Florida this summer. However, the night before Sam went into labor we had stayed up late, very late, having a conversation that we should have had MONTHS ago. It was about our futures. Hers as a mom, and me as a mom, and a single woman.

Sam & I playing pool the night before she went into labor

My new grandson, Jayden

 

After our discussion I realized, even more than I knew I would love my grandson and want to be here for him, I LOVE my daughters, especially this one. She was my first born. It was just me and her for the first 15 months of her life (her "bio dad" left and never came back with she was just 11 days old) and she was 4 before I had another baby. And If I left, who would be here for her? Yes, my ex does consider her his daughter, after all she was only 15 months old when we met. But I know he loves his other daughters, too. However, I know that I will always be here for her. She has a rough road ahead of her. She is a very young mother, unemployed, and still in school. She is an "adult" as of today, it's her 18th birthday. As much as I want to start over my life, as a single woman, I am her mom. The other 2 have "their" dad.

So that was it, I made my decision, I will stay here, work my ass off as a single mom working three jobs (the 3rd one is working for my neighbor). I need to save up money, a lot of it, if I want to move out and start over. Sam has plans & goals for her and her family's life. And as I know a little too well, you can have all the plans and goals that you want, but LIFE will still get in the way. Someone needs to help push her to achieve these goals. Her dad works a lot so I know he can't just drop what he is doing to run to her side. I can. And I will (as long as I don't get fired in the process). I can not be unemployed again. That shit sucks monkey balls.

As much as I hate being single, I guess it's something I will have to deal with until I am a responsible enough adult, none of my bills say "past due", and there is cash in the bank (all 5 accounts).

It has been a joy letting you know what's going on in my life right now. I hope to do another blog next week.